I’m gonna be totally straight up: I have failed miserably at life this week. The sun is setting on Wednesday night and I feel completely helpless to start any work STILL. I called into work sick today for the first time b/c of a migraine. It’s getting better but the only light I see now is the screen.
So … what the fuck? I need to go back and read previous posts, which I’m sure are all very “inspiring” and pristine. Well, folks, here I am in my entirety: much less than a saint. But really … I find honesty is always the best policy. This policy takes some serious guts … and I don’t always have the guts it takes … as anyone who knows me well knows … well. But I’m trying. But let’s get real: I’m not trying hard enough. Why live under the illusion? I know it’s all about balance … but balance is difficult for me. Very, very difficult. But you’ve genuinely got to try.
There is the System … and then there’s your System … (please learn there can and must be a differentiation for your optimum life) and you can cheat the System and come out ahead … but when you cheat Your System … you’re only cheating yourself.
Well, here’s the thing. You have to know what your personal System is. For me, my world just got rocked this weekend with the concept that you should do whatever it takes to make your life worthwhile … whatever that may me: immoral, illegal, atypical (courtesy Kate Bornstein, my new hiro).
Because all of these things are social constructs. You choose whether you submit to them.
Make up Your Law and follow it. Tonight, I make up my System. I’ll let you know when I figure it out. …just don’t be mean.
-k.
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